Despair

Within the darkness of my despair

There was no man to help me there was no one to care,

I felt I did everything I could,

To cry out for help to try to be understood,

There was no cure no magic pill,

Just a diagnosis of being mentally Ill,

I couldn’t accept that I felt it was more I was torn,

Could it be possible to my side was placed a thorn?

I just can’t figure out why every day I suffered so,

With all my cries for help there was only one place to go,

Jesus my Lord I have lost my pride,

Could you please take this thorn from my side?

My spirit is weak and this Illness has caused me shame,

Jesus my Lord my God I call out your name,

Not one day of my life have I been worthy of you,

Have mercy on me Lord and carry me threw,

Now all be patient and wait for your calling,

Help me now dear Lord as I am falling,

Your all I have Jesus please don’t let it be,

That the devil has a hold on me,

Jesus to you I plead,

Your blessings and mercy I do need.